yesterday, i sat on a friends couch and was telling her about my book. i told her how it felt like i had this puzzle and how im stressing putting all the pieces together so that it makes a coherent and entertaining story. i just started rambling like i do (hi, im chris. have we met?) and i started telling her the topics im covering and the stories im telling and i mentioned how im writing the story of the sexual abuse from my childhood. its like i didnt even realize what i was saying. this book is almost a secret for me. i have only allowed a handful of people to read very minimal passages and when my mouth dropped that bomb it was like i accidentally told my mom i bought a bag of weed with my lunch money.
my friend noticed a change in my face and made note of it. i was hoping she wouldnt but she did.

today, i was riding my bike to my moms house to apologize for not feeding her cats while she was on vacation and i started thinking about how if my mom ever read any of my earlier books i would be mortified... but then i thought about what would happen if she ever got ahold of what im working on now, it would kill her. like, ruin. but what do i do now? the damn thing is almost finished. it is literally the most vulnerable and open thing i have ever written by miles and i have made a commitment to me (and you) to always challenge myself and try to out-do what i did last. (because its not about what you've done, its about what you're doing and where you want to be)

i rolled up to my moms house and we sat on opposite couches and she asked me how i was doing.
i said fine.
she said, "no, i mean are you doing okay? when i dont see you for long periods of time i get worried about you. it usually means you're depressed and when i ask you if you're depressed you always just say that you're fine."
i looked up and away and said, "im fine."
but what am i supposed to say? "hi mom, i just wrote about the time i was molested in the back room of a funeral home while you were on the other side of the wall burying your father and son?"


i always said that the only time i know when im doing the best i can is when it makes me nervous.
this goes beyond nervous and into terrifying.
i am terrified to let you read this.

Current Music: the cult - she sells sanctuary.

I just wanted to say thank you all so much for the support, it honestly means the world to me. I remember when you guys sent FBR e-mails and tweeted about the band sketch shirt, and now it's an official piece of Paramore merch! It's honestly a dream come true :D

I also wanted to post that you can now buy the shirt that's a few posts down in the picture of Hayley and Chad at the House of Blues in L.A. Here's another picture with the link of where to buy it. My friend and I are going to be printing more designs soon, including a cute tote bag. Again thank you everyone that's following us on Twitter, checked out our blog, and just wished us well :)



*If you buy a shirt make sure to post your receipt number somewhere to be entered to win a shirt similar to the one in my userpic :)*

Current Location: Kitchen table
Current Mood: excited
Current Music: Evil-Interpol

Paramore will be playing live at Stockholm Bandit Webbradio between 8-9 monday morning (i guess that's around 3-4pm eastern time?).
Go here http://www.bandit.se/webbradio/frameset.php and then where it says "välj radiostation" choose "bandit stockholm" and you're good to go!

(PS according to hayley's twitter they're already in sweden!)

Hi all,

I'm following this journal a while now and I decided to gonna post too, So let me introduce myself ^^
My name is Mitch, 20 year old I'm from the Netherlands, fan of Paramore since beginning of 2007, MY dream came true when I won a Meet & Greet with them past year at Tilburg, So my hobbies are Drumming and Webdesign, I own the dutch paramorefans.nl with my friend Marion, 
well that's kinda it, I'll come with some icons and stuff soon :)

so for now i got a little question for u guys, Anyone knows the HQ/HD version of this photo: http://www.paramorefans.nl/gallery/albums/2009/fotoshoots/My%20Artist/paramore-2009-pressefoto-04.jpg I know it's HQ already but it's not big enough, I know there is a bigger one i saw it on the net but I just can't find it anymore :\

Cheers,
Mitch.

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By: Luciano Corrotea

i need help/ your opinion


paramore are gonna be on Radio 1 next week and me and my friend are thinking about going down to the studio to meet them, but we're not sure if its really worth it
i mean i think its quite likely that we'll meet them
but then it may only be for 5 mins if that, because they'll probably have somewhere else to be
its gonna cost about £20 to get down there as well !

just want some opinions on whether it'd be worth going ?

also is anyone else from LJ going ?


thanks

I don't think this has been posted yet... How is the whole meet-and-greet situtation for the Honda Civic Tour gonna work out?

Hey,

I love Paramore videos (my all time fave is "Pressure", but "Emergency" and "The Only Exception" are close to perfection, too), I've already downloaded all of them from the net. Now I'm just looking for a real HD version of "The Only Exception" to download.

Maybe you can help me? xD

And btw. I bought my "don't be ignorant!" bracelet in December and I wear it all the time. What about the others who own these bracelets - do you still wear them? XD

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Current Mood: calm
Current Music: no music right now.

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